Day 2 of residency- drawing, drawing, drawing

Posted on April 7, 2020

End of day 2. Playing around with multiple ideas- rather the single one I had intended. This is partly due to the interactions and responses I had both in person and on-line. But I figured isn’t that why I am here- to get feedback and respond?  

One new visitor to the space today said

‘Keep up with your message. There’s plenty of people with mental health problems who need this…I am not religious but I am a believer.’

This made me think again about my work- is what I am creating relevant or helpful to a young person/ people with mental health problems? Maybe this thing can’t just be personal to me?

It also made me think about how people were interpreting the window display and the short pieces of text I had put up. I have the word LOVE, in a central position- and both visitors today commented on that.

My thinking now…an alternative Buddha figure/ Goddess figure needs to be more urban, less gendered, less floaty, less eastern…For a figure to work I think you have to be able to relate to it in some way… The image below was created at the end of the day.

Other thoughts-

I now understand why Hinduism has multiple Goddesses- it’s pretty tricky to include everything you need to include in a single image or sculpture- I had a list of about 6 main issues I wanted my creation to cover and I soon realised it would take weeks to compose such an image! (These included protecting the planet, feminine leadership, water conservation, peace between nations, blurring of genders, body shape, some balance between the masculine and feminine…)

I think having a contemporary theme might make it more meaningful to people. In the latter part of today I got out magazines thinking I might collage…but instead I drew some of the images that spoke to me. Thought about how I might simplify them and turn them into 3D sculptures. (She says being primarily a painter!)

What I know is that creation needs to offer the viewer/ user: understanding, sense of peace, love, strength, ideally guidance….

An idea of the work having a hole where their heart would be, symbolising them giving you their heart, came to me yesterday and is still around today. A visitor liked that concept. ‘What more can someone give you than their heart?’

a sculpture

Apologies if this doesn’t seem very coherent….I’m at the ideas stage 😊

My delivery of clay arrived today- so maybe I shall dive into that tomorrow.

Sharing ‘the why’ behind my work – Art talk no 1

Posted on February 25, 2020

Sharing the why

Inspired by a weekend away I decided to make a series of 3 videos about 3 paintings. They weren’t planned. I just followed ‘my flow’ and began with this one which I painted last year.

It begins a dialogue about there being two of me, discusses the inner conflict we can feel about the roles we have in life and how painting helps me to think this through.

Reflecting on the residency

Posted on January 22, 2020

The residency is now over what did I learn, discover, create? Did I create an image of universal love or come even close? Have I somewhere else to turn instead of the Buddha?  I discovered so much it’s hard to say it all- but here are some of the main discoveries

The ‘wandering, searching’ tribe

Most significantly, the conversations I had revealed there are people out there, just like me, a little lost, searching, believing in something that doesn’t have a shared name, doesn’t have a physical form or a set of rituals associated with it. These people have turned away from religion because they found it oppressive in some way. They come from many different backgrounds, are both men and women and in all age groups. I heard stories of religion letting them down at crucial points. But people still turned to prayer when things got tough, as many of us do.  Who is that we prayer to?

Second big find- Patriarchy infiltrated religion as well as culture.

Archaeological finds indicate that 30,000 years ago, in the Neolithic period, people believed that the ‘super power’ was feminine. There are small carved statues all over the world, portraying a female figure. These statues weren’t fertility symbols, that’s patriarchy talking, they were symbols of what people believed to be the creator of everything- the Earth Mother, Great mother, Shakti. This wasn’t just in the Africa, Asia, Egypt, it was across Europe and Celtic cultures too. (See work of archaeologist Marija Gimbutas)

This was a time when women were revered seen as having super-powers as they were the sex most closely related to the supreme creator of everything- which was believed to be a feminine force. Patriarchy began to erode matriarchal structures from the bronze age and here we are today – with only a smattering of matriarchal societies left and 52% of the rest of the population consciously or unconsciously believing men are the stronger, more able sex, believing that the masculine is superior to the feminine.

My research into Buddhism led me to Tara, a female buddha who got lost along the way. Also, a book called ‘Cave in the Snow’ which is the story of Tenzin Palmo, a Buddhist nun. She shows quite clearly how she was denied access to learn from higher scriptures because they considered her unable to reach enlightenment due to her sex. Tenzin Palmo is challenging this today and has pledged to reincarnate always as a woman until she reaches enlightenment.

Third big find. A strand of Hinduism names the creator of all things ‘Shakti’- a feminine force.

Shakti is not to be a confused with the goddesses- she is at the top of the tree! She takes the form of several goddesses – each of those helps us to cope with life. Kali, when we need to the strength to fight injustice, Goddess Lakshmi for attracting wealth and abundance- we have so many wants and needs there has to be multiple goddesses.

The human race can not survive without men, so of course there are men and some of these are deities too. But Shakti is the ultimate feminine force of everything.

Something about my process

Tuning in

There were times as worked, that called on her to support me, to reveal herself to me, to us. (‘Tuning in’ is something I do when painting- so this isn’t a new thing). There are 3 particular works I could mention here- the clay sculpture of the head, the light sculpture made from sacking, some drawings I made and where stories also came to me to accompany them.….think there is something in those.


I was working in a shop fronted space, where people could come in at any time. The window display was an important vehicle to attract people into the space.

Carol & Lindsay

I had at least one visitor per day and our conversations very often influenced the work created. It no longer focused on my need it became something broader as I realised that this resonated with other people too. Were the female forms I was drawing relevant to other people? I considered more contemporary images that may appeal to younger people searching…

The engagement wasn’t always positive so after week 1, I had to redefine my boundaries and change the window display to attract a different kind of visitor- ideally more women.

The workshop mid-way through, ‘Feminism and Spirituality’ was a significant point in the journey. It was suggested by someone I didn’t know who had resonated with the title of the residency- ‘When Buddha’s not enough’. The depth of conversation and honesty in that setting was something special. The creative element involved creating our own versions of the Neolithic Great Mother or Venus from clay. Everyone created a different form meaningful to them.

Did I come up with an image, a structure that could replace the Buddha?

If I had to replace the Buddha with any of the objects I made- the way I feel now it may be the abstract rock I created designed to be touched. I like the idea of laying my hand on there, sitting quietly and using that to connect.

I am however drawn to the human form, so there is something about the sculpture of the head that I made…  

The light sculpture feels special. It feels like it needs an audience- the corner of my lounge is not right for it. It has a grandeur about it that demands a space to itself. It’s beautiful in the darker hours of the day and when photographed the colour of the light shows up differently to the way the naked eye sees it- I like that bit of magic, mystery, accidental camera wizardry.

Light sculpture: The Great Mother

What next?

I want to continue the journey which I think now is about reclaiming the feminine. I’d like to pick up the threads of belief from Neolithic times and start to sew with it ….see where it takes me. There is a picture book in my sketches that wants to happen and I realise I love clay! There is something about community and the wandering tribe…

To finish

When I was writing the first draft of this blog yesterday, this came through at the end – so I want to finish with that

‘I am drawn to write the word ‘Love’ here. She is in all that is ‘love’ there is a purity and simplicity in love- where you feel love you will feel her.’

sculpture considering the intimacy of a relationship as a way of connecting to the source of all things

Feminism and Spirituality Workshop

Posted on January 8, 2020

1. Context: From Goddess ‘Mother of all life’ to God ‘the Holy Father’

2. Suggested Discussion Points

-Our relationship to God as ‘Holy Father’

-Our relationship to God as ‘Sacred Mother’

-Does gender matter?

3. Creating our own imagery- (drawing, clay, other)

Facilitated by Prith Biant

Residency day 2- the Feminine in Spirituality

Posted on January 7, 2020

Sharing some ideas and thoughts based on my reading so far in this short video (almost 8 mins). You input would be welcome.

Useful links, References

Awakening Shakti- Sally Kempton

Tenzin Palmo, authored: Cave in the Snow (Feminist Buddhist Nun) Set up this organisation

Day 1 Discussing the ‘Divine’

Posted on January 6, 2020

First day of residency. Feels strange working in such an open public place when someone can drop in at any time. Enjoyed the first couple of hours settling into space by drawing.

Then my first visitor curious about the Buddha in the window. ‘My son’s having a Buddhist wedding next month so I’m curious to see what this is about’

Oh dear have I offended him by the title of the residency? I found it hard at first to articulate to a stranger what this work was about. I tried to reassure him that it was not Buddhism I was against but more the prevalence of male deities in many religions.

We talked and talked…he told me stories about his life. He’d grown up in the Church but left it behind in adulthood. Whilst not aligned to any religion now he believes in a ‘divine force’ (his words) that must have created everything. He talked of ‘divine’ moments where they were more than just coincidences that led him to people.  (Note: This guy is a senior, successful businessman- not a new- ager)

By the end of our chat I realised that although we are very different, he too had a need for something to turn to other than church and religion. He looked carefully at the drawings I had created and read the text that accompanied one of them.

What would he think?

After some further questions, he said he admired my courage for doing this. For saying what I wanted to say and not following others.  That was quite a moment.

Would my creation work for him too I wondered? Then I drew some more.

What a day. Thank you x

Discovering Tara

Posted on December 30, 2019

I recently started some research  for my residency, beginning with the search ‘Female deities in Buddhism’. Here is brief synopsis of what I found:

I discovered Tara who’s earliest text references date from the 5th century and earliest image has been found in Cave 6, Ellora Caves, cut into rock dating back to 7th century. Worship of Tara was well established in India by 8th century.

Tara takes many forms and also colours. Most prominently, there is white Tara and green Tara- both representing different aspects.

Tara also takes the form of Saraswati- in Hinduism she is the daughter of Durga and wife of Lord Brahma. Saraswati, stands for ‘one that flows’- fluidity of all kinds including speech, writing, song, music and thought. She also represents knowledge, arts and wisdom.

Tara appears in forms across China, Japan, Indonesia, India and Bengal. In China she appears as Kwan Yin.

The images, often sculptures, are amazing. She is sometimes in a meditative pose, sometimes standing strong, sometimes graceful holding a sitar.

Also of interest was this quote, from a speech made by the 14th Dalai Lama, speaking about Tara at a conference in 1989.

‘There is a true feminist movement in Buddhism that relates to the goddess Tārā. Following her cultivation of bodhicitta, the bodhisattva’s motivation, she looked upon the situation of those striving towards full awakening and she felt that there were too few people who attained Buddhahood as women. So she vowed, “I have developed bodhicitta as a woman. For all my lifetimes along the path I vow to be born as a woman, and in my final lifetime when I attain Buddhahood, then, too, I will be a woman.”

This initial piece of research is most welcome- a female buddha does exist! Well of course she does. How could she not?! As with many other stories of women, she is just not as prevalent within mainstream culture of today.

I have always wanted to see the temples in Southern India that have the ornate carvings of women/ goddesses- I now know why. They are most likely Tara or Saraswati.

But where does this leave me and my residency now – have I found my answer already?

Before I started this research, back when I submitted the proposal for the residency, I drew an image – as my own alternative to Buddha. It was a sketch over several sheets of paper. At the next studio session I asked myself how I develop this. A painting didn’t feel right for some reason. I happened to have some clay in the studio- and that’s what called me. So I moulded first trying to recreate my 2d drawing, but this didn’t feel right- so I remoulded. After 3-4 hours I arrived at something which I was happy with- although it was a little strange- not the beautiful thing I thought would come out. But I know that you have just have to follow the creative process- and let it create what needs to be created.  

This is the work I wanted to develop in the residency- and still do. 

Who knows maybe Tara will appear in her 21st century form? 

When Buddha is not enough

Posted on December 8, 2019
Image for Prith B blog 'When Buddha is not enough'

In January 2020 I begin the year with an artist residency with the arts organisation ‘Made in Roath’ at their premises 1a Inverness Place, Cardiff.

The subject matter for the residency is based on a poem I submitted titled ‘When Buddha’s not enough’.

So why this title? There was a point earlier this year that I realised that the images we look to for spirituality and connection are predominantly male. At that particular point in time, let’s just say I was keenly aware of the prevalence of patriarchy in society and how it can covertly eat into everything including the closest relationships…with detrimental effects. (Perhaps I’ll share the specifics at some point- but it’s whole other story that may even have its own body of work.)

As a feminist, however much I admire the teachings of the Buddha, I realised this beautifully carved figurine sitting on my desk, no longer offered me the sanctuary I needed. I now saw him as just another man who had been elevated to this grand position- the face of Buddhism. Where were the women/ the female deities?

I was born into the Sikh religion which has 10 Gurus all of whom are men. Christianity has Jesus. The only female presence I was aware of was Hinduism which has several Goddesses but the main deities are Krishna and Shiva.

This residency is about looking to create something that someone like me, who is spiritual, without identifying with any particular religion, might look to when they need comfort, guidance, spiritual support.

Is it female based? Is it without gender? Can it be drawn? Does it need to be 3D? Does it need to be something more complex? I want to keep the door open and trust that I have the ability to create what comes to me. If I feel it needs to incorporate sound or music I will invite musicians into the process.

I have yet to decide on my approach. I could research world religions and see what has come before, or I could tune in and meditate and see what comes through.

One thing I do want to do is to start a dialogue with other people that this resonates with. Are you tired of what’s on offer- in your quieter moments do you crave for an alternative? Would you be interested in coming on this journey with me?

Email me and we’ll work something out.

Freedom Piece continues

Posted on October 1, 2018

The #sackslavery exhibition is getting closer- October 18th. Yesterday I did more work on the freedom piece- adding flowers to the wings. Did I tell you about the wings? You’ll see when it’s finished.

Also since my last post I have found some music that will go with the piece. It’s from the talented composer, Simon Rodgers, who has a studio in the same building as me.

When I heard the particular track I’ll be using I cried. I also realised that I want people to cry when they see the work. Modern slavery is such a harrowing issue- mainly affecting women, who are forced into situations often involving physical and or sexual abuse.

Back to the stream about collaboration- being in certain spaces opens doors and new collaborations. This happened not just with Simon the composer but also with a tech wizard, Ashley Croome, in a different building I also inhabit- a tech hub. So I now have a ‘raspberry-pi’ bit of kit that will play the music on a loop, but only when someone approaches, as it has a motion sensor.

I have never really collaborated over my art, it’s usually a solitary activity often around painting, but this work has been about connection and collaboration, a combination of people and talents – this has all happened organically. And its not over yet.

There is still a key bit of construction work that needs to happen for it to stand up- I’ll need some help with that too. With so many wonderful people in the world I’m sure to have another collaborator soon.




Raising Awareness of Modern Slavery- an art piece

Posted on August 3, 2018

’46 million people live as slaves today. Modern slavery affects every nation in the world, including Wales, and has many cruel faces including: Forced labour, criminal exploitation, sexual exploitation, domestic servitude and organ harvesting.’

An independent coffee house, Manumit Coffee, supports survivors of modern slavery and has invited artists to create works on the theme of ‘Freedom from slavery’ using a coffee sack as a starting point.

At first I was unsure whether to raise my hand for this project, after all how could I create something I haven’t experienced? Wouldn’t it be patronising? After some research and reflection I decided that if I could do something to raise awareness of this hidden issue then that could only be a good thing- so today I picked up my coffee sack and my brief.

As you know I am a painter primarily, but this piece is not going to be a painting- its going to be an installation piece. My concept has two parts- a structure that symbolises captivity and the second element is wire structure of a standing, free woman. I shall start sketching this out later today.

Today I started part one. I don’t want to share the detail as I prefer to reveal the whole piece in October at the show- but creating it was a uncomfortable. I don’t usually take my art into these areas- so it was a stretch- but a stretch worth doing. The piece is now hidden in the corner of my studio, where it will stay for at least a month.

With the first stage underway I can now switch to the standing figure- the free figure. I have no idea how I am going to create it- but I have time- and where there is a will there is a way. I may need help- that’s fine.

I’m now quietly excited about the challenge of creating this piece- it’s new for me and who knows what impact it could have?

The show is on October 18th at The Sustainable Studio Cardiff, to coincide with Anti-slavery day.